I declared to my Bible Study last week that I am no longer sick. I feel so good. I'm exercising more than ever. I have strength and energy and enthusiasm. I have no signs of being sick. I feel that since they removed 100% of my rumor that there is no reason to focus on it anymore. I still have two more months of chemo but they will be at the lower dose and then I will officially say goodbye to the past year and a half.
I feel that at this point that the majority of my deficits have cleared. I only very occasionally bump into things on my left. I began driving on the highway again occasionally. I don't feel dizzy or nearly as much confusion. I have not needed to lie down in the afternoon any longer.
These deficits are results of surgery, the tumor and the treatment. They will always be a part of my life, but the stronger I feel, the more my body can compensate and the less present they are.
The statistics and data and prognosis will always linger in my thoughts but I believe they will increasingly be more remote thoughts. Treatment is the real thing that keeps it all forefront in my mind and when that is over and I regain all of my energy I am sure I will only look forward.
So, if you were to look at my life and spend time with me, you would agree that I am not sick.
If or when the tumor returns, I'm sure I'll revisit some of the fears of this journey but for now I will live a life of freedom and joy!!
